New Year,new me?- or just the same old shit like every year?

So a new year started and I hope everyone had an amazing start into 2014. Do you remember back in 2012 some of us actually thought the world was going to end an we didn't even think of 2013 and now we have 2014? :D

I am usually not a big fan of new years resolution but this year I decided to make some. So first of all I really want to lose weight and like lose it for good and not just for a week or two and then start eating loads of sweets again. So for that I will have to start to eat healthy (ugh) and do some exercise.... god help me :O

Second I really want to visit my host family. So Iwill have to get of my lazy ass and book the flight... I should be able to do that I suppose :P

Another one is since I am doing my "Abitur" ( german Exams) next year I really want to start studying and preparing myself so that I won't sit there two weeks before the exams trying to earn all the stuff we learned in the past two years.

I have like a fourth one but I am not quite sure about it. Like I am a really sarcastic person and I often  complain about a lot of things. Like my friends can handle it but I think it might scare other people of like so that they don't want to get to know me or it makes them think I m a really unfriendly person. Like on the one hand I want to change that so like I don't know..become nicer and stop shouting out my opinion on something without thinking about it, but than on the other hand somehow that is a part of me and I mean every book every friggin TV show tells the audience to "be yourself" and don't change for other people. People who know me might suprise that but I really thought about that a lot and I decided that I'll try to be like friendly and understanding and all but only as long as it is like reasonable. So if I don't like a person I won't start doing everything so that this person likes me. Like I know that not everyone likes me and I am ok with that because I don't think there is one person in the world everyone likes.

Ok these resolutions aren't great or something but I think it's important that I am actually able to do them. I mean whats the point of saying this year I want to whatever travel the world whenI don't even have the money for it?

Tjaaa... da hab ich mich wohl eine Weile nicht gemeldet. Upps.

So if someone was actually reading my blog and waited for a live sign from me. I'm really sorry. I'll give you guys a short Version of my coming home and my summer + Autumn so far.

Saying goodbye to my Host Family was horrible. Like i don't even think I cried that much when I said goodbye to my real Family. Maybe it was because I always knew that I was going to come back one day.

I still plan  to go back one day, if everything goes well I am going to visit them around Easter.

Me and my parents are fighting a lot after I came back. It has probably a lot to do with the fact that I don't always do what they say or the way they want it and that I sometimes just think whatever they wantor say is simply not right and they can't handle me not giving in immediately in an argument.

 But besides that my summer holidays were great. I don't know I just hope other teenagers have the same problems. I mean like I don't even do it on purpose.

 

We ( my Family and I) went to Italy for two weeks and even got to see Venice!!! It was beautiful!

 

 

After that I got a job in a supermarket in my town. The Job isn't really fun but I earn enough money now so I was able to start my driving license.

School started again as well and I have to say my new year isn't as horrible as I thought. I actually have to say I like most of them a lot. But I also have to admit that I should have done something over the Holidays because it is so so hard know. Like the teachers expect so much more from us know but thank god the marks I got till now are ok some , for example in english are really good.

 

It is getting dark so early now! Like I went to School today at 8 for my forst class and when I came back at 4:30pm it was getting dark again, which really is somewhat depressing.

I think that is all from me for now... I don't know what more I could add.

 

 

omfg!!!! I am going home in 5 (!!!) weeks!! I can't believe it! The time just flew away and really I definitely am looking forward to see my family and friends again but I will miss everything here so much :(

Its like whenever I left home I was sad but I was also excited and I knew that I will always come back home. When I leave Ireland I will never know if and when I come back and it would never be the same like now again. It is really sad but I am so grateful that I got the opportunity to come here and to meet all these wonderful people on this wonderful country <3

But my parents said that maybe next summer we come to Ireland for like 10 days or something and that would just be soooo awesome!!! I hope they really mean it!

I swear guys, I am so tired I could fall asleep right now. My sleeping routine is definitely destroyed after that holidays. I wasn't even partying everyday its just that I always stayed up long and slept even longer the next morning :\ And I can't say that school is so exciting that I'd wake up from it :D

My holidays were really good. My family came over and we saw a lot of places and even though we had our arguments again after only two days like I wasn't away at all, it was really good to see them again, because I did miss them a lot especially over Christmas.

And even though I went to Clones the day before I picked them up at the airport I wasn't tired at all somehow I was just too excited to see them :)

Just my mum has the talent to embarrass me completely!! Like I had a hickey from Clones when she saw it first she didn't say much and everything was ok but then when they met my host family, my host aunt goes "Did you see Germaine's boyfriend yet?" as a joke but for whatever reason my mum thought that it would be funny to answer " No but we've seen her hickey!". And like everyone was in the kitchen at that moment. My host aunt, host granny , host brother and one of his friends.... -.-

I have to say that I don't really miss them now, because hey, I see them again in 8 weeks! That's insane if you ask me. That's only two months :O I don't really want to go home.... everything changed at home like your friends and stuff and we more or less just settled in here and now we have only that little time left?!

The rest of the holidays I just met my friends and went to the pub but it was nice :) I really enjoyed them :)

Holidayyyys :) finally:)

Last week was st. Patricks day. We went to the parade in Dublin and then stayed there over night. It was very nice and there were so many people from so many different countries!! We also met some germans :)

The only bad thing was: It was extremly cold. During the parade I couldn't feel my feet anymore, which is quite normal I guess when you are standing outside watching a parade for 3 hours. Thank God it was only raining a little bit :)

Tonight we are going to Clones again, like always on the last Friday in a school term.

And TOMORROW!! my parents are coming over!! I am so excited I can't wait :) well I am quite stupid because I am going to Clones and basically I don't have to go to bed then because I would have to get up at 6 am anyway to take the bus at 7:30. But I don't want to miss something I mean everyone is going :)

Macbeth

Today we had an English trip to see Macbeth and it was actually pretty funny because it wasn't just the play it was like a special production where they didn't show all of the scenes and stopped in between to explain what is meant by what they said and all but they did it with a lot of humor :)

News

Today my parents got a letter from EF saying that I will come home on the 6th of June. That's in 3 months and 11 days!!! I can't believe it! If course I want to go home again but hell I will miss my family and friends here. !!!
The letter also said that there will be a goodbye "party" in Maynooth where the Camp was held. I think it is a good idea but when u say goodbye to my host family I will be so sad and upset that I first don't want to go on a party from EF with a lot of strangers and second I don't want to wait one more day until I see my family in Germany just to spend one more stupid night somewhere near Dublin. I mean what is the point of that ??? Why can't they send us home straight away??? And I mean I know EF like. I bet it cost extra anyway!!! It would really surprise me because they basically NEVER to something for free. I mean they didn't tell us before and i don't have to pay it because my host mum thinks that this us the stupidest rule ever but they expect us to pay 10€ a week for lunch even if it is just a slice of bread or otherwise buy it by ourselves!! I mean how stupid is that?? The families get 500€ a month and the third meal is not provided in this?? So I just hope it'll be optional because I really don't want to go there after I said goodbye to my lovely host family!!! I will miss them so much I could cry right now when I just think about it!! :'(